Posted by truetomyself on October 27, 2009, 3:17 pm, in reply to "Hi"
Hey Breakaway, I wanted to apologize for leaving you in the chat earlier. I have very sick kids here 
Hope to chat with you another time, and welcome to the board!
--Previous Message--
: Been here lurking...........I cannot believe
: how many of me are out there. Thought I was
: the only one that has felt the way that I do
: and I had better get it together like soon
: before making the biggest mistake of my
: life!
:
: Finally, a place where I belong! So many of
: you tell my story. Out to most and it isn't
: pretty and people not as understanding as I
: thought would be. Friends shun me like the
: plague, these people were like family, I am
: so hurt and disappointed! Some said exactly
: what was on their minds, siding with my
: spouse. Have a good friend of what I thought
: our family call just to see how husband is
: doing. LIterally called and asked how he was
: holding up.
:
: I don't live in a community where there are
: many women out. I feel so alone and lost
: right now. Maybe it is me, maybe I do need
: to get my head examined. Maybe I should
: except it is me and go on and be what I was
: before. I have liked girls since, I can't
: remember it's been so long ago. Had a few
: encounters very young and felt like I was
: going to see the devil up front and
: personal. He was going to take me down. I
: lived in fear, I was so young. Then a friend
: of a friend told because the girl I was with
: told her and lets just say life as a early
: early teen had changed. Miserably. Kids can
: be so cruel. Back in the late 60's and 70's
: this was so so wrong. It would be nice being
: brought up nowadays where atleast there's a
: little more acceptance. Not saying it's
: perfect but the badgering isn't as intense.
: Fortunately we moved away, father had a
: business transfer. Times I wondered if they
: knew from one of my so called friends moms
: telling her. From there on out I lived the
: straight life, can't say I was loving every
: minute of it. I even married! Husband
: doesn't know but I suspect he suspects that
: I am not just letting this be and it will
: all blow over. (had to edit after I read,
: too early to think straight,lol) He is one
: of those men that think seeing 2 women
: together something so hot..........wonder if
: he knew I was one of those women and if I
: were to be with a woman like that he would
: still think this.
: Gosh, I don't know what to do. All I know is
: the feeling I have inside are not going
: away. I know who I am and I want to be in a
: rlx with a woman and experience all the
: fruits of that bond. Yes, including sex!
: This is my story, hope it wasn't too long.
: Looking fwd to meeting many of you and maybe
: form some friendships along the way....Best
: Wishes-BA
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