Posted by silentlyexploding on October 27, 2009, 12:28 pm, in reply to "My husband is talking to our pastor..."
He is back and said it was a good meeting for him. That he realized that he can not hang all of his happiness on me and my feelings for him. He said he is going to try to love me the way that a husband should love his wife, according to Ephesians. That he feels that we have a decent friendship and that he hopes he can win my heart completely, but that he will understand if he can't. That my being a lesbian has nothing to do with anything that he can control.
I am still sorting his meeting out in my head. Clearly, he wants me "fixed," but it seems like he is moving in a positive direction to deal with me not being "fixable."
--Previous Message--
: ... right now. I am very nervous. I am afraid
: I will not be able to face this man at
: church tomorrow night. *sigh* The pastor
: wants my husband and I in for marriage
: counseling, but I am not wanting to do that
: at all. I would not mind counseling to try
: to keep peace as we work through everything,
: because my desire now is to seperate. I am
: afraid that if I met with our pastor,
: though, I would feel pressure to stay.
:
: I almost outed myself to a couple of moms at
: our homeschool co-op yesterday. I know the
: news would not have been well received and I
: would have been kicked out of the co-op.
: Everything is becoming more and more real,
: ya know?
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