Posted by Looking Forward on October 19, 2009, 6:53 pm
Message modified by user Looking Forward October 19, 2009, 7:34 pm
I have read a lot on here and found it amazing how many women have been/are married AND gay. It's so helpful to hear stories of successes and struggles, as there always will be. I'm a bit of a turning point though, so I thought I would start posting.
I have children, have been married for several years, and just separated from my husband and moved out to my own place. It's been three years since I told my husband about who I am. It has been a long three years, from the pain it has caused him, the relationships I've been in, the whole coming out to my family... and now actually moving on with my life. At this point, my husband is supportive in every way, and is also concerned about me right now. I am coming out of a tough relationship that has been incredible, but yet has had some pretty low points as well. Love, without a doubt was there. But her path just cannot be the same as mine. She just left her husband as well, but is re-thinking things and needs to focus on her own issues. It's extremely hard given what we felt for each other and how we had seen a life together... without husbands, as our relationship had always been. But in order to keep my own sanity, I have to move on.. which is what she needs me to do as well. Moving out on my own, new to the world as a lesbian and not "out" to anyone except my family is going to be SO hard. I have no desire to find support in any current relationships I have.. most of the people are very closed-minded and wouldn't be a support to me anyways. I just think about how I have to start over in EVERY way in my life, and how hard it will be. I am trying to be as positive as I can, and need to meet new people and form new relationships.
I feel like I'm just rambling, but I wanted to start somewhere! I will continue to post, so look out for me in the future :-)
Looking Forward
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